Day 4- feeling better

JESUS ATE BREAD, SO WHY CAN'T I??


Day 4 was difficult but I made it past the 3 day hump so I think my cravings for bread and sugar are subsiding... Ah who am I kidding?! Give a mouse a cookie and it'll ask for a glass of milk. So I started day 4 off decent. Friday after noon I did some research on paleo pancakes and other bread like sources of food for me to have. I found a decent easy recipe for peo pancakes that calls for almond flour.

I don't know if any of y'all have ever bought almond flour, but that stuff is RIDICULOUSLY expensive!! $10 for a 16 ounce bag! Are you serious? For those of you who know me well enough that I've taken you grocery shopping with me, know that I find it absurd to pay more they $5 for any one item in the store. Of course sometime I have to because there is no "great value" version, but I do the best I can to save money where it counts. Most great value stuff tastes the exact same. Like great values cereal cocoa cool, tastes the exact same as cocoa puffs.

Anyway, so I subbed for all purpose baking flour that was $4 and next to the sponge flour on the shelf (it's still paleo).

So this pancake recipe I had called for flour egg banana cinnamon and vanilla extract.

Easy peasy lemon squeezy!

Sure it was piece of (evil, sugar packed, paleo ruiner) cake, but it tasted like a sponge.

It looked like a sponge.

Hmm... Think about how that ruined my excitement for pancakes.

Sad. But I ate it. Had a kinda sorta in a squint your eyes and cock your head to the left in dim light kind of way, resemblance to a real pancake.

CUP O' COFFEE SAVED MY LIFE.

went to Rockwall shortly after breakfast. Things were going good, got hit on by the guy who changed my oil at Walmart, finished a chapter in my book, and bought Christmas presents. The lunch time hit. and Chickfila called my name.

ugh!

Resist Meghan, RESIST!!!

I had a spicy chicken sandwich with french fries.

DELICIOUS!

Guilt level-5

That's okay, I knew I was going to Saltgrass steakhouse for dinner so I called it my "cheat day".

All I can say at this point is if bad food is my only drug, call me an addict.
Luckily though, I can have cheat days. Drug addicts, cant. Suckers!

I sat down and Saltgrass and the waiter placed that large loaf for Shinerbock bread in front of me... OH THE AGNOY!! OH WHO CARES!

I devoured almost 3 loaves of bread before my meal even came.

I had, ugh, a steak and a sweet potato.

ugh, would have been amazing if I hadn't been eating steak and sweet potatoes for the past few days. But their steak, even though I ordered it without seasoning and the garlic butter still tasted much much better than anything I could have ever made.

I swear I could hear the Rolling Stones playing in the background, "I can't get no, satisfaction!" stupid steaks and sweet potatoes.

and for desert... drum roll please... wait, let me say this, I didn't even want desert, it was given to us for free. A BIG FAT SLICE OF STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE.

NOOO!!! If I wasn't in public, I'd of licked the plate clean, literally. Almost did.

Guilt level about a 6 to a 7.

Though I know it's my "cheat day" but I probably shouldn't have had Chickfila AND Saltgrass, but I'd rather of had them on the same day than on separate days. So I only have to feel the guilt one day rather than two. So it was a good trade off.

All in all, I've learning to make better choices, for a better me.

Good heavens though, that bread! HOLY MOLY! IT WAS LIKE NOTHING I'VE EVER HAD BEFORE, IT WAS AN ALL NIGHT DANCE PARTY IN MY MOUTH! Most people would have rather of had three more slices of cheesecake, but I'd of rather of had 10 more loaves of bread.

Hello my name is Meghan and I'm a bread addict.


starting day 5 fresh and paleo all the way. It feels too good to not crave taco bell. I've realized that I'm more afraid of the guilt I will feel after eating fast food than I am afraid of having a heart attack at 45 due to the trans fat and bad cholesterol.

I've had my bread fix, hehe, so I should be good for a few days.

Haven't decided how long I'm going to try this paleo nutritional hell, but I like to be right, I like to win, so I'm going to go as long as I can. In fact, I'm almost starting to enjoy this. *GASP!!*

Though in reality I'm spending more money on food these days than before I started Meghan nutritional lifestyle change for a better me journey, I know I'm spending it on better options than that sweet sweet gallon of ice cream and Oreos.

Crap, shouldn't have thought that. Now I want an oreo.

ugh.

I guess another cup of coffee will have to suffice.

until next time, wish me luck.