It's been a week. Normally a week wouldn't seem like such a long time, but this past week has serious dragged on. I don't think it's just because I haven't purchased any food but also because of school. I'm starting to work on my final seminar paper that's 50% of my overall grade. So naturally it's freak out Meghan mode.
I have a tendency to seriously stress when mid-semester rolls around and I know my final paper due date is creeping up right around the corner. So what's my natural stress reliever? Food. Comfort food. Hot greasy, fat and calorie ridden comfort food. On a normal stress day my comfort food is, as you probably gathered from my previous post, bread and butter. But when it's "paper mode" time as I call it. I don't even want to think about cooking or assembling any type of food. I don't feel I have time to assemble or cook food when I'm in "paper mode". I need something quick, something I can stuff in my face without thought or care as I hunch over my computer and books.
Here's a list of excellent "paper mode" food:
1. Chick-fila Chicken sandwich and fries
2. Taco Bell/ Bueno bean burritos (as long as you can keep them together)
3. Chicken Express chicken tenders and mashed potatoes -- I normally get corn but that requires two hands to eat and one hand must always be on the computer or flipping pages
4. Sonic chicken salad or Chicken wrap -- neither they offer on the menu anymore, sadly
5. McDonalds or Wendy's chicken nuggets -- they're actually easier and more efficient than Chicken Express tender because they're not crunchy so you don't get as many crusty flakes on your keyboard or in between book pages
Those are the top five go to "paper mode" meals. Here's a tip for you stressing "paper mode"-ers: Jack In the Box tacos are a bad idea. They're too greasy and your books and keyboard will smell like Jack in the Box for a week or two after. Of course, I'm not condoning anyone to eat those tacos, no matter how delicious and disgustingly cheap they are after a stint at the local pub, but nonetheless, don't eat them while studying and/or in "paper mode".
I imagine I'm going to have a bit of a difficult time managing my food intake and working on my seminar paper over these next couple of weeks. Unfortunately, I wasn't too smart when planning this 21-day challenge. The challenge ends Nov. 1 and my paper is due Nov. 7. Therefore, I pretty much have the entire paper writing time to not purchase food. Which to me, totally @#!*ing sucks.
But like I said in my first post when starting this challenge, if I didn't start last Wednesday I probably would have forgotten about it. And I think there's a saying for addict's that goes something like: "There's no better time to stop than right now" or maybe it's the other way around for motivational purposes... Doesn't really matter I suppose. Point is, it's too late for me to change my mind about this challenge and I don't have control over when my paper is due. So like I always say when people tell me not to stress and that I'll get things done, "Yeah, I have to".
I know that's kind of rude to say to someone only offering words of encouragement, which I really appreciate and most of the time need it more than I let others know but everyone knows I want to get my Master's and writing this seminar paper is what is going to get me one step closer. Therefore to get my Master's I have no choice but to write this paper. So although I greatly appreciate your words of encouragement and by no means please do not stop, I tend to be very hard and degrading towards myself when writing these papers. I suppose what I can ask is for you to say something like "Meghan quit procrastinating and get your shit done". I like constructive criticism because if I don't hear it then I think I'm doing things right and if I'm not I need to know.
The last thing I will say before I end this for the night to get started on more research for my seminar paper is: I honestly can't remember the last time I ever stuck with something this long, even though I hated it. I'm a quitter and I only do things I enjoy. Well, most Crossfit workouts totally SUCK while I'm actually doing them, but honestly I enjoy them. I love pushing my body to it's limits and tell myself "just one more round" when my body feels like it's going to collapse, shrivel up and poof into a cloud of dust, or more accurately melt into a pool of liquid on the gym floor. I don't really care to do things I don't enjoy and as much as I bitch and complain during the act, whatever it is, I know I want it or at least will want it in the end, otherwise I wouldn't do it.
So I guess you could say that I'm kind of enjoying this 21-day challenge... Kind of. But it sure as shit is stressing me the hell out.
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