time to reevaluate things...

I just got back from my GRE test.. My heart dropped as the scores appeared on the screen.

I'm not allowed to say much about the test due to the confidentiality clause I copied and autographed before the test.

I know I wrote a really badass essay, but it seems that's not enough.

Of the list of the 200 most common GRE words that Kaplan and ETS gave me, NONE of them were on my test. SHITTY. WASTED TIME.

430 verbal, 380 math. I get my essay score back in 2 weeks.

As I left the test center, I question myself whether graduate school is right for me anymore. Maybe it's not where I belong, maybe I'm not good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, tough enough, maybe I just don't want it bad enough?

It's time to take some time to reevaluate my life. Where do I go from here? I can take it again, sure, I can study harder, retake the Kaplan courses, I can learn more vocabulary words, but what if I don't get that 600, again? I never thought I wanted anything more in life than to go to graduate school, I've never thought about anything else, It's always been my dream. But maybe it's not where I'm meant to be.

Hello, life direction are you out there? I need you. I need you bad.