Day 2

They always say the first few days of changing your habits are the hardest. I don't think I'm ready to testify that to be true or false just yet though. It's only day 2 but I can vouch for the difficulty level in changing your habits. Though I know this habit I'm trying to break isn't as tough as other habits many people conquer such as quitting smoking, quitting drinking, exercising more, eating healthier, etc. but this one for me, is pretty tough.

I don't work on Tuesdays or Thursdays each week, allowing extra time for my studies so I spend most of my time at home except for the hour I spend at the gym. I didn't feel like going to the grocery store last night after class so I decided to go today after the gym. I've heard you're never supposed to go to the grocery store hungry because it causes impulse buys, and now after a $198 grocery bill I'll vouch for that.

Breakfast was fairly easy because I was home and had no desire to leave until I headed for the gym. Rarely do I go out to eat for breakfast anyway since I know it's the most important meal of the day and quite frankly my scrambled eggs are much more healthful and tastier than Ihop's. The only time I do go out for breakfast is on weekend mornings, which still isn't often because that requires me to get out of my sweat pants and brush my hair earlier than I want to. So for breakfast I had a bowl of cheerios with Almond milk MMM!!!

Gym time-- my stomach didn't enjoy those cheerios and milk during the workout. But they stayed down, if that's what you're wondering. I just don't do well with milk or milk imitating products like Almond milk, it tastes funny more of the time and during exercise it makes my stomach a little upset.

After the gym I went to the grocery store. Like I said I spent $198. ugh. There goes my entire savings from last weeks pay check :/ but totally worth it. Stocked up on frozen meat, veggies, bread and a lot of canned soups, chili, corn, beans, etc. Bought extra eggs, cheese, lunch meats and bread than I normally would because I want to make sure I have enough food to last me for the next 20 days so I'm not tempted to go out to eat as the challenge comes closer to the end and my food supply becomes barren.

We have a McDonalds in my Walmart. As much as I dislike the idea of eating the pink goopy chicken nuggets. I was STARVING. and when that time hits, my body goes into defensive starvation mode. Like an army full hungry little cells attacking my body and my brain saying "FEED MEEE!!!!" That's normally when I turn to fast food. And walking by the Mcgoopy nugget smell my hungry army of cells went into overdrive. So hungry in fact I contemplated doing something I find absolutely disgusting. Eating the food I'm about to buy while I continue shopping. I hate when people do that. I think it's rude, and disgusting and it makes you look like a fatty. You seriously can't wait until you get home to eat that? Ew. My pride kept me in check while I finished shopping. Of course getting home was a totally different picture.

I've never unpacked groceries that fast in my life.

Luckily I baked flank steak last night that was supposed to go with my noodle, egg, pea/carrot mix but I saved it instead for today. Ate the rest of my noodle mix from last night and some flank steak. I was pretty proud of myself for abstaining from the Mcgoop at Walmart and abstaining from going out to lunch there after. I attribute my abstinence to my planning last night for cooking the flank steak.

Dinner was pretty easy now that I have a pantry and fridge full of food.

I actually watched part of the Rangers game last night, I know. Me, watching sports. Pretty unlike me, eh? Anyway, watching the baseball game made me crave nachos. You know the nachos that have exceptionally salty tortilla chips and heaps upon heaps of some yellow-orangish warm, tasty, rubber-like textured "cheese". So I made some at home nachos with a little tortilla chips and shredded cheese. Not as good as the disgusting, chock-full-o'-calories heaven they serve at games but still satisfying. :)

Dinner time came about and it was spaghetti and meatball night. Went down pretty smooth although still full from the nachos.

Today went pretty well, I wanted to caved a few times, but all in all I'm proud I've successfully made it through two whole days without purchasing food.

I think this weekend will be a bit more difficult. But I think my pride won't fail me. People say being prideful is a vice, but right now I think it's a virtue. For without pride I wouldn't be able to do much of what I've done. <- that's true for a lot of things in my life, i.e. Crossfit (my safe haven and life saver), grad school (my main motive for going was to called by people and be able to introduce myself as Dr. Self, how much more vain and shallow can you get?! I have ulterior motives for choosing to teach that I would still consider part prideful but mostly selfless).

Work tomorrow, packed a larger than normal breakfast and lunch just in case. I'd rather have too much food with me than not enough. It's times when we don't have enough of something that causes us to stray from our paths to find that thing we want.

Measurements:
Weight: 140
Waist: 28"
Hips: 37"

^^Those number are dedicated to my trainer Jamie. Because without her they would be between 2-4" higher.