Day 3: Shitty Sugar Situation

I realized this morning that I didn't pack enough food to tide me over through breakfast, lunch and a snack before Crossfit. Fear and worry came over me. I was afraid I would cave during my "2:30 feeling" and hit up the vending machine.

So instead I decided to rationalize my food. For breakfast, instead of having an entire bagel I halfed it.

Half of the bagel at 8:45am

the other half at 11:00am

Surprisingly I wasn't starving come 12:30 like I normally am when I eat breakfast at 9am and not have any other snack afterward.

I waited until 1pm, still wasn't very hungry but my boss frowns upon employees taking lunch after 1pm. I don't know why though... So I took 15 minutes for lunch. Ate my 3oz of flank steak and a cup of mandarin oranges. Normally 3oz wouldn't be enough, I honestly don't know what I was thinking last night when I packed my lunch. Oh, yeah. I think I was drinking tequila and orange juice at the time. :/

So now all I have left is a banana. Normally I would have eaten the banana for breakfast too. But that's rationalization.

OH NO!! Office email alert: BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION WITH COOKIES AND ICE CREAM AT 2:30.

Well F@$% Me!

So, question Does it count if someone else buys me food? I'm not talking about going out to dinner with mom for no reason other than to see each other. No, mom I'm not saying you're not important because you are. The most important person in my life, but does us going to dinner qualify as me breaking the challenge. I think so.

However, I have to play an exception rule. You see, my aunts birthday is next weekend and I don't think the food my family will be eating will be prepared at my grandparents house. I don't think we are going to a restaurant, however most of the time my grandparents parties are catered. So due to this cause I cannot avoid. I will do my best to eat enough prior to to not eat with them, if the food is not a sit down dinner. If it is, I will have to eat and will just tack on an extra day to this challenge.

So back to the sugar haven, I mean crisis at the office.

What do I do? Can I eat some ice cream and/ or cookies? I didn't buy them. The cookies were homemade.. :/ ahhh!!

So the office party came and went. and Sadly. I caved. I had 1 small scoop of vanilla ice cream and 1 cookie.

So, I'm wondering if my challenge is over? am I making excuses? I was just about to delete this whole portion- about the cookies and ice cream- because if I don't post it no one will know. It'll be my little secret.

But something stopped me. I'm only lying to myself by deleting it and doesn't that prove my point for why I am doing this challenge? To not let food have control over me? Obviously it's still something I need to work on otherwise I'd would have been able to visit with my coworkers without sans ice cream and cookies.

Even if those of you think my 21 day challenge is over, I'm still going to continue with it for the next 18 days. I think tripping up at the office birthday fest just reassures me why I need to do this. Needless to say, I feel guilty. I feel like shit. I feel determined even more now.

Dinner: Already planned ahead. Baked chicken breast, lettuce, and cheese wrapped in tortilla for an easy on the go meal as I head to Fort Worth for the evening.

I probably will have a few drinks, and that's one of my weaknesses. Eating shit food when I drink. I know you probably know it all too well too. So I have 2 choices:

1. don't drink
2. carry a snack in my purse just in case

Wish me luck for a good completion to day 3.

As my lovely boyfriend Aristotle said, "We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit." <3