Day 4 : Food Addict?

I've decided that for the next 17 days I can not consume any alcohol outside of my apartment. Well, which really isn't a big deal considering the fact I NEVER go out anywhere that serves alcohol except restaurants and it's not like I'll be going to one of those anytime soon. I did well last night for going out to Fort Worth with a few friends, actually sitting on the patio of a restaurant having a few drinks listening to some good music. Because I ate two chicken wraps right before we left my apartment I didn't even think about eating anything the whole 2 hours we spent at the restaurant. It wasn't until we got in the car to head home. It hit me like a giant speeding train derailing off it's tracks. My stomach was sending these horrible signals to my brain. Screaming "FEED ME! FEED ME! NEED GREASY FOOD NOW! FEEEEED MEE!!" Luckily it's only a 16 mile drive home. Otherwise, I honestly can not say that I would have made it without stopping.

Strangely, this morning I woke up starving! Ew. I'm never hungry first thing in the morning. I normally can't or at least, don't eat for at least an hour after I get up. But due to my insane hunger pangs I had scrambled eggs and bacon shortly after waking up. Sufficient. Probably not as tasty as a fat stack of smothered and covered syrupy pancakes but when it comes to eggs and bacon, I'm always game.

While procrastinating from reading I went to Target. There's a Subway next door. :/

Luckily, again, this Target is not even 3 minutes from my apartment so waiting until I got home to eat lunch wasn't all that bad. Although Subway would have been much more appetizing, convenient and accessible I came home and made the exact same turkey sandwich, toasted and all, that I would have gotten at Subway. It wasn't as good as the turkey sandwich I get from Subway because I don't have all the fixin's but I have buffalo sauce so that's good enough for me.

I knew I would be spending the rest of the day at home, so I wasn't and still am not concerned about purchasing any food today. Although, watching the baseball game really makes me crave some pizza. :/ Some ooey gooey warm slices of pepperoni pizza. MMMM!!!

Damn.

I just had some chicken noodle soup but now I'm thinking about pizza. Now I'm not satisfied, but I'm full. :/ I have a bad habit of getting a certain food in my mind that I want, I want it. Now. and I won't be satisfied until I get it. I tend to have these feelings with food I don't normally eat, or don't eat often like Big Mac's. I only get cravings for Big Mac's about two or three times a year, but when I get a craving, uh! The last serious craving I had for a Big Mac was quite some time ago, almost a year I'd say but nonetheless, it lasted for about two consecutive weeks. Finally I had no choice but to get a Big Mac. *shamefully*

I suppose this is another example of how I've let food control my life.

Anyone have any suggestions on how to stop these insane cravings?!

Day 4, complete. This challenge, I feel, is getting a little easier but I'm starting to learn some things about myself. About my food addiction, is it a food addiction?